Monday, January 5, 2015

Reflections and Hope

Each New Year begins full of possibility, and as each year comes to a close, you know that you are not the same person you were at the beginning.

This year has had it's highs and lows, births and deaths. We had new beginnings, and starting's been quite a year.
Before I go too far I want to reflect on a loss that hit me hard. My daughter lost all her possessions in a house fire. People were saved, stuff was lost. But in addition to losing things that can be replaced, and memorabilia and photos that cannot, was the loss of life of two precious cats, Bean and Whitney. I admittedly didn't know Bean very well. But, I loved Whitney very much. She spent a great deal of time with me over the years due to my daughter's various living and travelling situations. She kneaded my belly every night with this glazed, "I'm stoned and love everyone" look to her face for about 10 minutes. She was the great hunter of all things "Mole" in my yard. For all the blessings to be thankful for from the fire, her perishing in it was a tragedy and it hit me and others very hard.

My Dear Whitney:

You were your mommy's first real love, and my sweetest little darling. I loved looking into your face and seeing pure innocence. No longer seeing you keep watch in my yard, which you loved, is a sight I will miss forever. May you run free, play hard and sleep sweet, at the Rainbow Bridge, and know that you will forever be missed by mommy and me. I miss you sweetie, but mommy misses you more.

So looking forward, I want to spend more time this year with the people in my world. Those that I love. What is of greater importance than making memories with those we love?

I want to spend time with my husband of 36 years. We are so fortunate to have already spent so many wonderful years together. Since the age of 14, we have been a part of each other's life. I pray we have many more years ahead of us.

We have built a life together, and through laughter and tears raised four beautiful, exasperating, wonderful, strong-willed children. Each one is a part of us, and I wouldn't change a thing, because each unique individual is loved for who they are.

I pray that I still have time to teach them that they are important to each other because they are FAMILY and family always sticks together and looks out for each other.

I want to spend more time with my grandchildren. I know everyone who has grandchildren loves their grandchildren. I just happen to have the BEST GRANDCHILDREN in the world...someone had to. :) I pray that in 2015 I can spend meaningful time with them. I want to teach them lessons that are so important, they become memories that guide them through life. Short of that lofty goal, I'd like to have some fun with them this year.

My first grandson was born in 2014. John Warren Lowery, 7lbs 11 ozs, was born on May 31, 2014:

He already senses we are his people.....

I want to spend more time with my wonderful Granddaughters. There are no other girls throughout the world as beautiful and wonderful as my granddaughters. They are now one and eight years old. I love them more than my own life.

I would love to spend more time in 2015 with my extended family. My brother Jim, at age 48, had a stroke in October. He is recovering, but this was another sign of how quickly life can change. I don't want to have any regrets, or things unsaid, or hurts not forgiven, with my family.

I want to travel more. I visited the I love Lucy Museum, in Jamestown, NY, this past September, which was serious bucket list material:

The most meaningful part of the trip to me was visiting her grave.

During the same trip, we visited Cleveland, Ohio where we toured The Christmas Story House (Ralphie with his Beebee Gun):

But the best part of the trip was connecting with family that I have spent the better part of 30 years not being connected with. Nothing takes the place of people God has put into your lives for a reason. I love all of my family, and I vow that in 2015 I will connect more, on a more personal level, with each one.

God has put us together for many different reasons, not the least of which is to grow us. I pray I can be a blessing and a help to others in my family during 2015. May others know Jesus because they know me. May God bless each member of this family during 2015.

As 2014 came to a close, we had a wonderful Christmas celebration together. I pray that 2015 brings many opportunities to show love and understanding to each other. Memories are made by the special times we spend with the ones we love.

Happy New Year from my family to yours. May 2015 bring happiness and blessings to us all.



  1. Your letter to Whitney made me cry (and still cry). You are so missed my sweet girl, not a day goes by that I don't think about you and wish things were different.

    Jack loves you! Can't wait to see more of you this year and make more memories for him :)

  2. Now I am crying too! Looking forward to time with you and Jack. I miss you both!

  3. Really enjoyed your blog. You need to keep writing them:)